Bad luck day...

It was my worst day ever.It started since morning till evening.Today,i went to bakery to have my lunch after the last statistic class.After i have paid the bill,i found out that the balance is RM44.40 and this kind of number was not a nice number for chinese because it represented die.After that,when i was half way having my meal,i saw a worm in my plate.Suddenly,i felt like want to vomit and for the first time i can't finish all of my food.And just now,the whole Inti hostels were surrounded by the darkness because of the power failure.For the first time i met the power failure at here.After that,me and my friends thought that want to have a walk around the campus.We all went to bakery there again and the boss saw me,we had a talk for a while and all of my friends keep walking around that area.After i finished complaining the stuff that i met this morning,the boss apologize to me.And here comes the funniest thing.I met Miss Lilian from SAO and she was about to go back.She keep pressing the remote control of the car in order to unlock the car's door.However,it doesn't work.She thought that the remote control had run out of batteries.Therefore,she requested for my help to help her take the remote control to the Times(grocery shop) and help her to change the batteries.She ask me to be fast and i was running out heading to the shop by several minutes.After changing the batteries,i came out from the shop and it was raining at that time.I have no choice but to run back to there as soon as possible.When i reached there,a person name Leong was there and he is Miss Lilian's colleague and i knew that guy.I passed the remote control to Miss Lilian and ask her to try whether is working or not.She tried and it is not working.This time,Leong help her to check it out and he had tried to open the door by the key as well and is not working.Then,Leong ask Miss Lilian."Are you sure that this is your car?"."I'll kick ur ass man,of course i am sure this is my car."she said.Then i asked Leong to check whether the number is correct or not.At the moment,Miss Lilian shouted."Oh ya huh...This is not my car,my car is in front of MPH...".Me and Leong were being stunt and after that we all laugh non-stop.How can you use your car's remote control to unlock other people's car's door?Ahaha...After that,Miss Lilian sent Leong a message to ask him not to tell this thing to other people.Leong replied her with 2 words which is TOO LATE! because he just finished telling his friends about this and i was there.Ahaha...

Saw her twice today.I just can't speak out a word when i saw her.Why?My mouth were numb and my heart beat were fast whenever i saw her.Why?Why?Why?

Don't regret
Have you ever wondered what hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't? Or saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.

Don't be afraid to tell someone that you love him or her. If you do tell them, they might break your heart. If you don't, you might break theirs.

Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't; you can't tell your heart what to do, it does it on its own when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid; afraid of what we don't know; afraid of what others will think; afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have
done, or could have had.

What would you do if every time you fall in love, you have to say good-bye?
What would you do if every time you wanted and needed someone they would never be there?
What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have him or her?

Is there something inside your heart that just makes you want to say it out, but you're just afraid to?

Do you like him or her but are just not sure?

If there's something inside your heart, then speak it out because if you don't you might regret it.

Always remember that no matter what, it's never too late to take action.

FOREVER IN LOVE BY KENNY G

I SENSE YOU NEAR
You are not here but I feel the touch,
Of your searching fingers that I love so much.
That sensual, teasing, tantalising caress,
Feelings of pleasure I have to suppress.

You are not here but I savour the taste,
Of your sensual lips - Oh what a waste!
I feel them trace around my face,
Making my heart quicken its pace.

You're in my mind though out of sight,
Your alluring eyes, forever a delight.
Enticing my mind to share with you,
Exciting encounters we must renew.

You're in my mind, your voice I hear,
Though out of sight you seem so near,
I sense your familiar friendly tone,
I can't wait for us to be alone.

You are not here but your fragrance I smell,
That fills my mind and casts a spell,
To heighten my longing to have you here,
Filling my senses to make you appear.

Confusing...

I am still wondering whether want to go back hometown or not for this whole day although i have bought the air ticket that back to my hometown.Just quite worry about something and i have get the stay back form in order to get my room key back with me and i can always come back at any time as i want.I don't have enough sleep for this few days although i have no semester exam to worry about.Every night i will stay up to 1 or 2a.m. and i will sleep after that time.It had caused me skipped my statistic class for twice and i will receive a "LOVE LETTER" from Inti-UC if i skip it for the third time.>.<...Luckily tomorrow will be the last day of this semester and if i could attend the class for tomorrow,i not have any chance to get it again.
Having exam soon right?Wish you all the best and please do take care of yourself.It is just a simple test to you.Perhaps you shouldn't take it as an exam but an exercise and it will help you to reduce your nervous feeling so that you can perform better.Just don't push yourself too hard.A string will easily break if you pull it strongly.GOOD LUCK YA!!!
A TOUCHING LOVE STORY
10th Grade:-
As I sat there in English class,
I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so called 'best friend'.
I stared at her long, silky hair,
and wished she was mine.
But she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it.
After class,
she walked up to me and asked me for
the notes she had missed the day before.
I handed them to her.She said 'thanks'
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

11th grade:-
The phone rang. On the other end,
it was her. She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how
her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over
because she didn't want to be alone, So I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her
soft eyes, wishing she was mine.
After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips,
she decided to go home.
She looked at me, said 'thanks'
and gave me a kiss
on the cheek..I want to tell her,
I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

Senior year:-
One fine day she walked to my locker.
"My date is sick" she said,
"hes not gonna go" well,
I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,
we made a promise that
if neither of us had dates,
we would go together just as 'best friends'.
So we did.
That night, after everything was over,
I was standing at her front door step.
I stared at her as She smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal eyes.
Then she said- "I had the best time, thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

Graduation:-
A day passed, then a week, then a month.
Before I could blink, it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body
floated like an angel
up on stage to get her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine-but
she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat,
and cried as I hugged her.
Then she lifted her head from my shoulder
and said- 'you're my best friend,
thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

Marriage:-
Now I sit in the pews of the church.
That girl is getting married now
and drive off to her new life,
married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it.
But before she drove away,
she came to me and said 'you came !'.
She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

Death:-
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin
of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'.
At the service, they read a diary entry
she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read:
'I stare at him wishing he was mine,
but he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it.
I want to tell him,
I want him to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love him but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me !
.........'I wish I did too...'

I thought to my self, and I cried.

(I am also not willing to miss the chance but i am just too shy to tell her)



I DON'T WANT TO MISS THING FROM AEROSMITH


TRUTH IS BY RANDOM GUY
I look to my Love for inspiration,
She's the reflection of my words,
my souls reparation,
my spirits destination is Her.

You're a world all on Your own,
& such a beautiful place it is,
You're the best part of me,
without You I'm never truly alone, my Love for You is forever, carved in stone.

Your names a song continuously playing in my head,
when I tell You I Love You, I leave nothing unsaid,
Your happiness is why I pray,
looking in Your eyes it seems Heavens only a day away.

My essence reached out for Life, and You held my hand,
in that hospital bed, I lied their a helpless man,
but You gave me strength to fight & live,
so no matter what happens between us, for You, I have all of me to give.

Court!!!

Just came back from Inti Moot court.Two of my friends were having their trial today.For the first time they became lawyer.Diana and Elle,both were the excellent girls tried their best to win the case and there they go,it ended with a tie since both of them were too marvelous.Well done girls!This afternoon,i saw a her was rushing to her class,although i can't manage to say a word but in my heart,it automatically says HI!!!

My sixth sense was correct,something bad really approaching.I knew she will do that for sure and i am pretty sure that she is going to get what she wants as well.Once she got it,she will no longer stay at here and will move to other places.For her future,i should congratulate her although i really can't stand to let her go.May be this is so called fate.The thing that you want to cherish the most always run away from you when you start cherishing it.Just hope that she will stay happy after this and we probably won't have any chance to meet again after this.I seriosly can't think further of it.When i keep thinking about it,my mood is like a stone that being threw into the sea keep sinking into the sea and get deeper and deeper.Will she just a normal passenger that passes through my life? Anyway,just wish that she will get what she wants...

The Salty Coffee

He met her on a party, she was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her,while he was so normal, nobody paid attention to him. At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised, but due to politeness, she promised. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please, let me back home. Suddenly he asked the waiter: would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee.
Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but, still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously: why you have this hobby? He replied: when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could felt the taste of the sea, salty and bite, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I will think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who still living there. Saying that, tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched. That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart.

"A man who can tell out his homesick, he must be a man loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home," she thought. Then she also started to talk, talked about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story. They continue to date. She found actually he was a man who meets all her demands: he was tolerance, kind hearted, warm, careful...he was such a good guy but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee!

Then the story was just like every beautiful love story: the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life...And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked.

After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said: "My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I said to you, the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It's hard for me to change so I just go ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything..Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste..but I have the salty coffee for my whole life since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life.

If I can live for the second time, I still want to know you and have you as my whole life wife, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again."

Her tears made the letter totally wet. Someday, someone asked her: What's the taste of salty coffee?

It's sweet. She replied.

(I chose this story because the characteristic of the guy are same as mine)

THE WAY THAT I LOVE YOU BY ASHANTI

FOREVER AND ALWAYS BY DARIEN

Waiting at the altar with a single rose,

My eyes caught hers and then I froze.

Smiling at me from across the room,

She is my bride, and I am her groom.

The wedding march plays for awhile,

Gracefully she walks down the aisle.

As she approaches I see a vivid light,

She is my angel all dressed in white.

Her eyes glistened through her veil,

Like something out of a fairy tale.

She spoke with her cute subtle tone,

Promising we would never be alone.

"I will always be here to lend a hand,

Just remember I am forever your man.

I'm at your side through thick and thin,

Together on this journey we will win.

"My wedding vows saved in my head,

About to speak but I stopped instead.

Staring right at her my words choked,

But something from my heart spoke.

I looked at her, and then said aloud,

'Forever and always' is what I vowed.

"From here on out we start a new life,

Together forever, as husband and wife."

It's coming and it's going...

I was being fooled by several friends today.I had reminded others to becareful not to fool by friends yet myself being fooled by friends.(=_=")Somemore one of them used her name to fool me around which made me pretty sad.It's a day closer to the semester break.Don't know why,i just not so like the coming semester break.Feel like i can't enjoy my holidays.Maybe is because i can't see everyone for a period of time especially her.Hmm...Really feel uncomfortable and for the first time i felt like want to drop A-level,but it is all too late.Argh...What happened to me?Look at the books that arranged on my table,it really look like mountain.Somehow,there is a force that keep supporting me from the back and i won't feel tired when i think about something while i am having my revision and feel sleepy.It is far more efficient than coffee which will only makes you can't fall into sleep but can't concentrate at all and the caffeine is bad for health as well.Thank you girl!Feeling of mine remains unknown to her...

A silent love(adapted from net)
From the very Begining, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......

The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.

During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....

The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.

When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.
Comment from me:True love expressed unselfishly!!




TRULY MADLY DEEPLY BY SAVAGE GARDEN

THE GIRL BY CHIP

I saw her in the hall today

yet she does not even glance my way.

Inside I feel hurt and bruised.

But my love for her keeps me well mused.

It is this feeling that I cannot explain but i know that tomorrow I will see her again.

She walks along with such elegance it causes the wealthy to recompense.

Here she comes, right through the main fence

but does not stop with her usual gents.

For now shes facing me.

Her hair is down in chestnut waves,

her eyes are fixed to find my gaze.

As I look up from the ground our gazes now are one and enwound.

I am the first to make a sound.

"I love you"

April Fool's....

Hohoho...Is April fool's day for year 2008.Let's fool people around by this coming morning.Kekeke...I am wondering whether should i use this chance or not to tell her my feeling to her.Ahaha...Just some weird ideas that came to my mind just now.For now,i am thinking how to fool people around.(^.^)Saw her just now down my block and she was walking back to her room after class ALONE.At that moment,i just want to hold her hand and tell her that i am willing to accompany her back to her block.I just can't do that because when i saw her,my heart rate is like suddenly increase from 90++bpm to 10000++bpm.Just want to tell you to rest more,even though exam is important,but your health is far more important than that.Don't fall into sick again i knew that last time when you were sick you had suffered a lot.Just take care of yourself.I Grab the Phone

"Sophie!"I say."It's you!"



But there's a silence on the other end.

"Uh...no,"a voice says."It's Tessa,actually."

"Tessa?...Oh,Tessa.Hi!"I say."Sorry about that.

I was expecting another call."



"Let me guess..."she says with a little laugh.

"From Sophie,right?"

"Yeah,She's my...

she's a friend of mine,"I say.



And as soon as these words

pop out of my mouth,

I wonder why I didn't tell her

that Sophie's my girlfriend.



Maybe it's because

I'm not even sure

Sophie wants to be my girlfriend

anymore...

~adapted from a book




C U WHEN U GET THERE BY COOLIO Feat.40 Thievz

HOLD MY HAND FROM RANDOM GUY

Hold my hand and baby come to me

I want you to know I gave you all of me

I will be here for you always and forever

don't ask me to leave for I will forsake you never

My love for you is eternal and everlasting

meeting you I consider to be my greatest blessing

Let my love shine it's light upon you always

I will be here for you on the good but especially on the bad days

So go out now, into the world....

spread your golden wings and fly

Every time I look up into the sky

and see an eagle I will know it is you, flying high