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Sunday, August 16, 2009

My Love My Soul~

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I had no control over....I remember the first day when i saw him in class. He was wearing white shirt and black pant. I just looked at him and was impressed by his personality....... days passed........... and just a hello hi sort of conversation continued. In November he sent me an SMS. I messaged him and asked " who are you". He called me and informed. Then we used to send forwarded messages to each other. Sometimes he used to comment on those messages and i felt very nice. One day he added me on orkut. Daily i used to look at his pics for hours. I dont know why i used to look but i felt something for him. Then we started chatting and there was a sort of excitement. We even started talking on phones. The whole day i used to wait for the night so that we can chat. we became friends but my feelings for him grew more and more as the time passed. Then one evening he called and asked "can we meet?" . It was an unexpected surprise for me which changed my whole life. I said yes!!!!!!!!!! and we met at lake. It was cold out there. He came running..........my heart started beating at full speed. We started walking ...........he was a bit fast. I wanted to tel him to be lil slow but i didnt. I became speechless. I wanted to look into his eyes but i looked here and there...............infact on everthing except him. We came back to parking area and he sat on my kinetic ................and i sat behind him and took a small round of that area. That was toooooooooo romantic but i was pretending to be normal. We went back to our homes ............And i recalled every moment spent together again and again. We met again at lake. He was with his friend. We ate petty and my hands started shivering though i was warm enough....... he jumped and told his friend...........i felt shy as if i did something wrong. His friend went and we both sat.......lake never seemed to me so beautiful as i felt at that time. We both were sitting closely..... I wanted to say You are what I never knew I always wanted........ Next time we went in a garden. He had to go back home also but he was not in a hurry. He asked me suddenly " What is going on between us". I became confused ......smiled and didnt gave any reply. He asked me again and again but i was silent. I couldnt sleep at night..........! I was in love! After he came back from his home, we met again in a garden. It was dark all around ....... He said that nothing can happen. All my hopes were shattered. I came back home and cried a lot. I felt as if i am worthless.............not good for anything. Every time i used to open my orkut account i could see him. So i decided to delete him so that i can forget him. He used to message me n i used to reply. I always felt nice whenever he used to send me a message. I again added him on orkut and said sorry with the add request. He called me on new year and said we will meet when he comes back. I again started thinking about him........we met.......on 26th January at his residence. We played all sorts of games. Then suddenly he said " what if i kiss you?" . I became numb........ I said " i know you will not do". He remained very busy with his office work so i never forced him to meet me frequently. We met on 10th feb (his birthday) for five minutes. It was drizzling. I didnt wanted to say bye but i had to........ We met again in March on Holi. That was the turning point of our relationship........where our eyes said everything to each other. The most eloquent silence.........where only love existed. We met again and again and came more close..............more...................more n more. Actually, there is no remedy for love but to love more. Whenever I meet him.... I feel the same charm as I felt on the first day. I want to be with him forever n ever n ever............! Amen!
LOCKED IN LOVE BY JAMES BAUM
I have locked it~

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