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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Is against me...

Erm...Suddenly felt like i am turning into a bad boy slowly since i skipped the physics class in the early morning and i have broke the record for the first time because i never skip physics class start from my first semester and today i just did it.Please forgive me!Ahaha...It was because of the caffeine which makes me can't fall into sleep.In order to pass the time,i went out with my friends and watched the football match between MU and Barcelona.The match finished at around 5am and i am super exhausted at that moment.I quickly fell into a deep sleep once i get back to my room and since the physics class is at 8am and i had chosen to skip it.Argh...Because of the guilty feeling that kept bugging for the whole day,i took all my stuff and went to library to revise physics and i thought i was going to spend my time at there until dinner time.However,the librarian said that library is going to close at 6pm.What the...Hmm...Luckily i had spent at least 3 hours there before it's close.With that,at least i won't feel guilty anymore.I hardly turn myself into the study mode yet the library is making me to turn back into the lazy mode.Ahaha...Funny,funny...And i have being asked by a friend to accompany him to the library on tomorrow morning and perhaps i can once again generate the study mode.I think i will spend my time at there from morning till evening.Haha...That's it dude...xD

Keep On Singing
Like any good mother, when Karen found out that another baby was on the way, she did what she could to help her 3-year-old son, Michael, prepare for a new sibling.
They find out that the new baby is going to be a girl, and day after day, night after night, Michael sings to his sister in Mommy's tummy.
The pregnancy progresses normally for Karen, an active member of the Panther Creek United Methodist Church in Morristown, Tennessee. Then the labor pains come. Every five minutes, every minute. But complications arise during delivery. Hours of labor. Would a C-section be required?
Finally, Michael's little sister is born. But she is in serious condition. With siren howling in the night, the ambulance rushes the infant to the neonatal intensive care unit at St. Mary's Hospital, Knoxville, Tennessee. The days inch by. The little girl gets worse. The pediatric specialist tells the parents, "There is very little hope. Be prepared for the worst."
Karen and her husband contact a local cemetery about a burial plot. They have fixed up a special room in their home for the new baby now they plan a funeral. Michael, keeps begging his parents to let him see his sister, "I want to sing to her," he says.
Week two in intensive care. It looks as if a funeral will come before the week is over. Michael keeps nagging about singing to his sister, but kids are never allowed in Intensive Care. But Karen makes up her mind. She will take Michael whether they like it or not. If he doesn't see his sister now, he may never see her alive.
She dresses him in an oversized scrub suit and marches him into ICU. He looks like a walking laundry basket, but the head nurse recognizes him as a child and bellows, "Get that kid out of here now! No children are allowed. The mother rises up strong in Karen, and the usually mild-mannered lady glares steel-eyed into the head nurse's face, her lips a firm line.
"He is not leaving until he sings to his sister!"
Karen tows Michael to his sister's bedside. He gazes at the tiny infant losing the battle to live. And he begins to sing. In the pure hearted voice of a 3-year-old, Michael sings:
"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray..."
Instantly the baby girl responds. The pulse rate becomes calm and steady.
Keep on singing, Michael.
"You never know, dear, how much I love you, Please don't take my sunshine away..."
The ragged, strained breathing becomes as smooth as a kitten's purr.
Keep on singing, Michael.
"The other night, dear, as I lay sleeping, I dreamed I held you in my arms..."
Michael's little sister relaxes as rest, healing rest, seems to sweep over her.
Keep on singing, Michael.
Tears conquer the face of the bossy head nurse. Karen glows.

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. Please don't, take my sunshine away."
Funeral plans are scrapped. The next day, the very next day, the little girl is well enough to go home!


I cant find the words
to express how i feel
i know this is love
and i know that's its real

my heart is burning
for the love that you've giving
you gave me a chance
a reason for living

my baby my love
the girl that i trust
i have to be with you
this is real and a must

dreaming about the way
the sun touches your hair
i love to be near you
for once in not scared

i love the way you smile
the way you taste
how you smell
your innocents drive me wild
you are my dream
girl i fell

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Here comes the request...

Hoho...What a surprise!Received a special request today and i am going to carry it out while i am having my AS exam.Hope that everything will be fine and will run smoothly.Take it easy,boy,take it easy.Is not a big deal after all.Sacrifice some time in order to get back something better.Along with the laughing of my friends,my heart hurt even worse.Is it the time for me to stop thinking all the useless things and get myself back to study mode?Seems like it will be my final answer for that but actually i can't.
Your face is the only thing in my mind now...Argh,headache...I will grow through this pain and i know that i have been taught to put it down when i lost something.Perhaps some sweet memories can accompany me fro the rest of my life.Look back at my life when i am old,i think i will be laughing at these silly things that i have made...You are the one and only for me...Have a nice day and a nice rest...Still have a long way to go...
A man stopped at a flower shop to order some flowers to be wired to his mother who lived two hundred miles away.

As he got out of his car he noticed a young girl sitting on the curb sobbing.

He asked her what was wrong and she replied, "I wanted to buy a red rose for my mother.

But I only have seventy-five cents, and a rose costs two dollars."

The man smiled and said, "Come on in with me. I'll buy you a rose."

He bought the little girl her rose and ordered his own mother's flowers.

As they were leaving he offered the girl a ride home.

She said, "Yes, please! You can take me to my mother."

She directed him to a cemetery, where she placed the rose on a freshly dug grave.

The man returned to the flower shop, canceled the wire order, picked up a bouquet and drove the two hundred miles to his mother's house.


Before marriage and after marriage.

Before marriage
Boy:Excellent,i have waited this day to arrive for song long and i can't wait for it anymore.
Girl:Can i go back on my words?
Boy:No,you don't even think of it.
Girl:Will you love me?
Boy:Of course i will!
Girl:Will you betray me?
Boy:I won't.What makes you think so?
Girl:Can you give me a kiss?
Girl:Will you beat me?
Girl:Can i trust you?
After marriage↑(Read it start from bottom)

Monday, April 28, 2008

Boring=Party Time...

So it was the first day of the revision week,wake up in the early morning and went for the 2 hours Chemistry class.Somehow,the lecturer keep crapping all the useless things for 45 minutes and then dismissed the class.Thank God!It was the same for the other subjects as well.Wuhu...Oh ya,another advise...DON'T TRY TO TEST MY PATIENCE!...I am like an active volcano at this moment...Street Party is coming!!!
Add on after supper: MR.LIM WEIZHUAN,i am begging you,please don't make those predictions anymore...
Oppurtunities multiply as they are seized.~Sun Tzu

I will take everything slow,time can prove everything...I will take action when i felt that you are ready for it.You can't get back the tears after you have dropped it. LOVE AND TIME
Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,

"Richness, can you take me with you?"

Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"

"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."

"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"

"It was Time," Knowledge answered.

"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"

Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."


Is Not By Me But It Is What I Feel
I've loved you..
I just didn't know how to tell you..
and i let you slip away like sand in my hands..
Fearing that I would get my heartbroken once again..
And it's hard telling you I love you when it seems like you don't care..
So i followed my heart..
And this is where it led me..
Did it lead me wrong or right??i shall never know for the simple fact that my heart was too broken to tell what direction it was directing me to go...

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Bad eyesight...

Oh my God!I missed it,it can't be.You guys will know what am i trying to say right?Especially Mr. LIM WeiZhuan(WZ).You have a good eyesight man.Argh...For the first time,what happened to me?I no longer sensitive to it.Sometimes i should try to trust the words that said by WZ.Aikz...What a noob am i...But according to what my friends said,it really did hurt me even though i didn't see it.Hmm...May be...Perhaps...Please don't make me think further.Met twice but i wasn't the first one to discover it.(Censored) it!!!Will have my chemistry class at 8am tomorrow,going to have a nice rest now.
It doesn't matter,if you are happy with it,just keep going on with it.Even though i will awake from my sweetest dream and will never have it after all.For me,your happiness is the most important thing and will always come first than anything.

A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it, God had put all the human "qualities" in a separate room.

Since all the qualities were bored they decided to play hide & seek.

"Madness" was one of the qualities and he shouted: "I want to count, I want to count!"

And since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek "Madness", all the other qualities agreed. So "Madness" leaned against a tree and started to count: "One, two,three..."

As "Madness" counted, the qualities went hiding.

"Treason" hid in a pile of garbage..

"Lie" said that it would hide under a stone, but hid at the bottom of the lake.

And Madness continued to count "... seventy nine, eighty, eighty one..."

By this time, all the qualities were already hidden except "Love ". For stupid as "Love" is, he could not decide where to hide. And this should not surprise us, because we all know how difficult it is to hide "Love".

"Madness": "...ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven..." Just when "Madness" got to one
hundred........."Love" jumped into a rose bush where he hid.

And Madness turned around and shouted: "I'm coming, I'm coming!"

As Madness turned around, "Laziness" was the first to be found, because "Laziness" was too lazy to hide.

"Madness" searched madly and found "Lie" at the bottom of the lake. One by one, Madness found them all except Love. Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love.

Envious of Love, "Envy" whispered to "Madness" "You only need to find Love, and Love is hiding in the rose bush."

"Madness" Jumped on the rose bush and he heard loud cry. The thorns in the bush had pierced "Loves" eyes.

Hearing the commotion God came into the room and saw what had happened. He got very angry and cursed "Madness"

and said since "Love" has become blind because of u ...u shall always be with him"

And so it came about that from that day on,

"Love is blind and is always accompanied by Madness!"



I call your name

but you never hear me

You want everything to stay the same

but I want you and me to be...

Everyone Knows But You

My heart pounds when you're near

I can't help but stare at you

You come closer to me and get this fear

forget it because you still don't know that I need you

Everyone Knows But You

On my birthday, I've being asked to make a wish

my wish won't come true

Yet I blow out the candles to my impossible wish

the smoke flys from what I blew

But my wish is like a full dish

and you won't have any part of it, I knew it wasn't going to come true

Everyone Knows But You

I hope you see that i don't want you, I need you

That my want is a need for you and me

see, I'm making something, but it's not finished 'cause you're the missing part

Everyone Knows But You

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Is not a good day for study...

Haha...For the first time i didn't touch my notes and books at all.Woke up at 9am this morning and keep searching for something until 6pm.I even forgot to have my breakfast and lunch for the first time as well.It is not that easy to get off from some troubles that keep bugging me.Phew...Perhaps i can forget those 'buggers' for a period of time until the end of June.So tired...Going to have a shower and then going out to 'yum cha'.A culture of Inti students that being forgotten by me for a long time ago.Ahaha...Let's get our culture back for once again.
Like you with no reason and i can't stop that no matter what...Sounds stupid but it is true...Hope that knowing you is not a dream...I rather keep dreaming if it is not real and nothing will wake me up...

A student asked: What is love?

The teacher said: in order to answer your question, go to the paddy

field and choose the biggest paddy and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back

to pick.

The student went to the field, go through saw one big paddy,

but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw

another bigger one... but may be there is an even bigger one waiting



Later, when he finished more than half of the paddy field, he start to

realize that the paddy is not as big as the previous one he saw, he


he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted. So, he ended up went

back to the teacher with empty hand.

The teacher told him, this is love... you keep looking for a better


but when later you realize, you have already miss the person

The student asked: What is marriage then?

The teacher said: In order to answer your question, go to the corn


and choose the biggest corn and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back

to pick.

The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to

repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he

has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfied, and came back to the


The teacher told him, this time you bring back a corn.... you look for

one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best

one you get.... this is marriage.


Angel From The Nightmare


Give me a moment to stay just like this

Mesmerized by you, after every sweet kiss

Give me a moment to look at your face

Tell me now, is this how love tastes?


Rest now, I'll be here forever

To let you hurt is something I'd do never

Before you, I'm lonely as can be

But now, all the wonders I could see


I won't ever turn back now that I'm here

I'm with you and everything is so clear

Unconditionally in love, I'm moved by you

You'll love me forever, is this true?


You're the only one who can see through my disguise

I see my life when I look into your eyes

My love, I'm not leaving anymore

Everything will be as promising as before


Just the promises I need to know

I can't bear if you ever go

In my dreams of nightmares I hear you call

So in love with you, look how deep I fall


So much to be said before time run out

Always find your way, with me or without

All that matters is for you to be all right

For that I'd sacrifice anything and I'll fight


Haven't I told you, I'm just for you?

Don't you worry now, I love you too...

Hope that it doens't take long...

Just came back and gained some acknowledgement about my future life at Australia if i am going to continue my studies there.It is so scary,no matter is in financial problem,accommodation problem and my academic problem.All are now a problem for me or may be my mum.Mum,i hope that you can call me in the morning because i will need to tell you the approximated money that you are going to spend on me.All of these are forcing me to go to USA and my chances of going to Australia are keep decreasing in all the time.All i need to do by now is to ask a favor from you.Mum,please call me in very soon because i will need you to help me do something before you come back to Malaysia.
Nice one girl,all of that were so nice and i am happy to see that...More please...=)

Once there was a blind boy. He fall in love with a girl.

One day girl asked him ...

" Will you marry me?"

He said ...

" Yes i will, but when i shall be able to see you."

After some days someone donated him eyes. He was very happy to see his love. But when he saw that girl was also blind. He refuse to marry her.

Before leaving,the girl said ...

" As you wish my dear But i want to say only one thing. Please Take Care Of My Eyes"

For those who understand mandarin,listen closely to the lyrics...

Those simple words confuse me.
For I thought I knew what they meant.
Until I lost and won some,
My love today is for rent.
I love you.
Those simple words I know so well.
I wish for you to know.
That just liking someone is so different.
So I will say it real slow.
Those are the words of a million feelings.
My hopes and dreams and joys.
Little girls writing love letters.
Chasing after boys.
Those are the words that I say to you.
I whisper them to your heart.
You turn and look back at me.
I loved you from the start.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Time's up...

Semester break going to finish by end of this week and just now went to the lobby there and had a glance at my revision week timetable.What the...I get the Chemistry lecture for the first class on monday and it is at 8am.Argh...Lifeless...Hope that Miss Gladys won't conduct the test on the first day.By the way,i will have 6 hours class on monday including the 2 hours class for Chemistry.Mr. Wong Pak Hui,how come you arrange the timetable like this?It is so (censored)(censored)...Two weeks left before our battle with AS.I am running out of time now because i haven't finish with my revisions yet.This time i seriously gone.What the (censored) are you doing Mr. Lim?Don't get yourself addicted to drama anymore.Study,study and study...
Erm...Nothing much to say because my love to you is growing everyday...It is strengthening the feeling...Nothing can change it...

Girl: Do you really love me?

Boy: Of course I do.

Girl: I wanna hear you say it.

Boy: I don't have to.

Girl: Why not?

Boy: Because...

Girl: I just want to hear you say it in words.

Boy: I can't...

The girl started to cry softly and said:

Then you don't love me...

The two continued to walk in silence. They

reached the girls home.

Girl: Why?

Boy: Do you really want to know?

Girl: (hesitantly) Yes.

He hugged her gently, kissed the tip of her nose

and whispered in her ear,

"Because three words are not enough..."


I don't know what I did to deserve you
but I thank the Lord above that
He's given me the gift of you

to share our special love.
Like a favorite blanket on a chilly night

or when I'm feeling blue
Your love wraps itself around me
like a special hug from you.
I love having a friend like you

and I know this much is true.
Of all the people who could have stolen my heart

I'm so happy it was you.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008


Why should a people always loyal to someone or something?It makes me wonder whether i should keep loyalty or should i start to betray?When you are loyal to someone or something,you look silly to others.May be it is because they can't manage to see the reward that you are going to get.For most of the time,loyalty or may be silly will always comes with a good reward.How much that you have paid,you will get the same amount of reward or may be more.Since the day that i have understood this and obeyed it till today,a lot of people had asked me why i behave like this since it looks really silly.I really don't care about that and i think i will keep it on for the rest of my life.For me,loyalty and keep one's promise are the most important things in life.Hmm..Is it stubborn or what?I am waiting someone to come and tell me.By the way,i hereby wish Miss Teo Hui Ying a Happy Birthday for her 19 years old birthday.May all your wishes come true.
I know that Rome was not built in a day,that why i take it slow.Someone said that slow and steady wins the race but to be truth,i know that we both have not much time left and i do want to know your feeling.Just that i don't even stand a chance to chat with you.All being stopped by some reasons.Is it not obvious enough or you think that i might be a playboy for you?Seems like there is only you know the answer.


Do read this letter carefully and see how creative it is.

Read this "Hate Letter". It is so funny and creative.

This is a love letter

from a boy to a girl....

However, the girl's father does not like him and want them stop their relationship....

and so..

the boy wrote this letter to the girl..

he knows that the girl's father will definitely read this letter......

you read this letter and then the message after it..

"The great love that I have for you

is gone,and I find my dislike for you

grows every day. When I see you,

I do not even like your face;

the one thing that I want to do is to

look at other girls. I never wanted to

marry you. Our last conversation

was very boring and has not

made me look forward to seeing you again.

You think only of yourself.

If we were married, I know that I would find

life very difficult, and I would have no

pleasure in living with you. I have a heart

to give, but it is not something

that I want to give to you. No one is more

foolish and selfish than you, and you are not

able to care for me and help me.

I sincerely want you to understand that

I speak the truth. You will do me a favor

if you think this is the end. Do not try

to answer this. Your letters are full of

things that do not interest me. You have no

true love for me. Good-bye! Believe me,

I don't care for you. Please don't think that

I am still your boyfriend.

"So bad!!!!!!! is it???


Before handing over the letter to the girl,

The boy told the girl to "READ BETWEEN THE LINES"...

Between the lines ? ? Try yourself...

Read the Alternate Lines.. [ 1,3,5 etc... ]

It's so smart & sweet....



All for you
Nothing can describe, the way I feel for you
Your love is warm and precious
Your heart so pure and true
Heavens angels brought me
To knock upon your door
To give you all my love
To keep you wanting more
The special bond we share, will guide us on our way
To a perfect life were dreams come true
What more can I really say
We were brought together, never will we part
You are my special gift
You are my shining star
I'll love you unconditionally
With all my heart and soul
I'll never break your spirit
I'll always keep you whole

Tuesday, April 22, 2008


Is raining outside and i just had my dinner at Jabez.When i was walking back to the hostel,i saw a group of people were having some water fiesta at the upper basketball court there.They were playing with the water even though it is raining.Water splashing around and all the girls were screaming around.Hope that they won't sick after this.Hmm...Sometimes i feel lonely while having my meal alone.All the people that around me were either with their partner or with a gang of friends.However,it does have some advantage.At least after i finished my meal,i can stand up and walk back directly without having to wait for anyone.Just that i don't have people to chat with within the period of time.Is okay,hope this situation won't last for long.Welcome back to Malaysia mum!Haha...Glad to know that you were having fun there.Start planning for your next trip?Hehe...Perhaps i can go with you...
My heart and my mind are thinking about you for all the time and i can't help with that.How long i didn't chat with you or heard a word from you?It's pretty long huh?Aikz...
The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. Then she's settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg.

It had been a year since Susan became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. 'How could this have happened to me?' she would plead, her heart knotted with anger. But no matter how much she cried or ranted or prayed, she knew the painful truth, her sight was never going to return. A cloud of depression hung over Susan's once optimistic spirit. All she had to cling to was her husband Mark.

Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all his heart.

When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength she needed to become independent again.

Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself.

Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city. At first, this comforted Susan and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task. Soon, however Mark realized that this arrangement wasn't working - it was hectic, and costly.

Susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But just the thought of mentioning it to her made him cringe. She was still so fragile, so angry. How would she react? Just as Mark predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again. “I'm blind!” she responded bitterly. “How am I supposed to know where I'm going? I feel like you're abandoning me.”

Mark's heart broke but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan that each day he would ride the bus with her until she got the hang of it.

And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all, accompanied Susan to and from work each day. He taught her how to rely on her other senses to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat. Each morning they made the journey together, and Mark would take a cab back to his office.

Although this routine was even more costly and exhausting than the previous one, Mark knew it was only a matter of time before Susan would be able to ride the bus on her own. Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday.... Each day on her own went perfectly, and Susan had never felt better.

On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying for her fare to exit the bus, the driver said, “Boy, I sure envy you.” Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year?

“Why do you envy me?”

The driver responded, “It must feel so good to be taken care of and protected like you are.”

Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, “What do you mean?”

The driver said, “You know, every morning for the past week, a fine looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you when you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches you until you enter your office building. Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady.”

Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was blessed, so blessed, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light where there had been darkness.

“You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her...”

So if you love someone, be faithful to that person.


I love without knowing how.
I love with the depths of my soul.
I love with all I am and all I have.
I love without eyes or sound.
For my love is blind and deaf.
I love with the gentleness of my heart.
I love with the only passion known to me.
I love with desire of you and me.
I love so much that we as two become one.
I love without judgement.
I love with mind,body,and soul.
I love in sickness and in health for all eternity.
For all that I am,all that I have and all that
I will ever be,I am forever yours.

Monday, April 21, 2008


That's what i am talking about,faster internet speed.Huhu...The transfer rate is about 80++kbps now.At least i can watch the videos on youtube smoothly.Haiz...Really hope that this can last for long.By the way,today i got a free education consultant that can consult me about my future studies at Australia or USA.Thanks a lot ya!Free education consultant,nice one!I received a lot of useful tips from her and had estimated the minimum budget for my study plan.Why all the people keep asking me to go to USA?Hmm...My generation is coming.
My love is only enough for you and my soul will always waiting outside the door of your heart.A sincere heart that lasts for long...


我告诉你说:“我今天扫楼梯时,差点儿从楼梯上摔下来。”本来我以为你会安慰说:“亲爱的,小心点儿。”但你说:“扫慢点,不就得了。” 我伤心,我觉得你一点儿不爱我,不在乎我。 后来,我发现我们的楼梯异常干净,干净的都不用我扫;一个月后我才发现,那是你每天抽出5分钟的结果。

我告诉你:“我的车子坏了,我走了半个小时才到车站。”本来以为你会关心地说:“你怎么不坐出租车,累不累?”但你说:“反正很近,你也顺便减肥。” 我生气,觉得你不爱我,不关心我。 第二天,我发现你留在桌上的你的车钥匙,以及为我准备的丰富的早点。

我告诉你说:“我想去北海道,荷兰等地,欣赏那一大片壮观地花海。”本来以为你会关心地说:“你想去哪,我们来计划。”即使敷衍几句也好,但你说:“真无聊,花大把的银子去那种无聊的地方。” 我生气,觉得你不爱我,不懂我。 后来,我发现家里的旅游杂志,不管是国内还是国外的报道,只要有赏花介绍的那一页,页角就有折痕,里面就有你的笔记记录。

我告诉你说:“我跟朋友出去,晚上会晚点回来。”本来以为你会关心地说:“ 跟谁出去,小心点儿,记得拨电话或早点儿回家。”但你说:“随便你,你高兴就好。” 我生气了,觉得你不爱我,不关心我。后来,我负气拖到深夜3点多回家,我看到你坐在沙发上的睡容。

我告诉你:“我的大姨妈来了,肚子好痛。”本来以为你会安慰我说:“忍一忍,一天就过去了。”但你说:“女人真麻烦,受不了。” 我伤心了,觉得你不爱我,不疼我。 后来,家里的零食柜里多了好多巧克力及红豆,是你买的,但你一直没吃。直到一个月过去了。你在我月事的前后一星期,天天煮着红豆汤。

我告诉你说:“我真高兴嫁了你,你是最好的老公。”本来以为你会开心地回答我说:“我也是这么觉得,你是最好地老婆。”但你说:“嫁了都嫁了,不然,你还想怎样?” 我生气,觉得你不爱我,不懂我。 后来,我无意中发现你在睡前用卫生纸擦拭床头那张40英寸地结婚照,然后望着照片傻笑好久。

我想我终于懂了,在你不在乎地外表下,有颗不善用言词表达的心,一颗最爱我 的心。原来你是爱我的。只不过不说。这是你爱的方式,与别人的不同。


I made a mistake...
please.. i didnt do it on purpose..
i love you..
just give me one more chance...
i was afraid of loosing you..
and know it turns out i pushed you away..
so please....
i love you so much..
just hear me out.. i am sorry..
mistakes are made to learn from..
so please..
i am asking you for just one chance...
i know i hurt you..
and it hurts me to know that..
i really care for you...
so please..
i am begging you..
for just one chance....

Sunday, April 20, 2008


Wow,the students that stayed at the same floor with me for the front part keep going back one by one.All of the doors were hanging a padlock with it.Huhu...Seems like i am conquering the whole floor again and this signifies that i can blast the music for whole night long again.Ahaha...By the way,something is going to rock the whole Inti students soon and it will probably attracts all the boys in this college.Please make yourself free on 5 of May 2008...Hmm...How long does it take to make me can once again chat with you?I have no idea but i am here once again to tell you that you are always in my mind abd my heart.Something that unforgettable and everyday i miss you more.I am happy to know that you are having fun at there too.Keep it on girl...

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home.

She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant.

Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, "You are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife.

When we just married, my wife said, "Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls."

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said," You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company."

Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, "Suppose we divorce, what will you do?" She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that 'divorce' was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates.

But I read some hurt in her eyes. Once again, Dew said to me, "Hey, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together." I nodded.

I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. "I've got something to tell you," I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. "I want to divorce." I raised a serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, "why?". "I'm serious." I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, "you are not a man!".

At that night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage.

But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day.

But I could not take back what I had said. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see.

To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible.

Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, "He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?"

This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, "I remember".

"You carried me in your arms", she continued, "so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning."

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. "No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce," she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger.

So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, "daddy is holding mummy in his arms."

His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms.

She closed her eyes and said softly, "Let us start from today, don't tell our son." I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door.

She went to wait for bus, I drove to office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse.

I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, "The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there."

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.

I didn't tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, "It seems not difficult to carry you now."

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, "All my dresses have grown fatter." I smiled.

But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart.

Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. "Dad, it's time to carry mum out." He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life.

She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school.

She said, "Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old." I held her tightly and said, "Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lack of such intimacy."

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs.

Dew opened the door. I said to her, "Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce.

I'm serious." She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. "You got no fever." She said.

I moved her hand off my head. "Sorry, Dew," I said, "I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you."

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, "I'll carry you out every morning until we are old."


Your Name pops into my head at every thing that I do...
When I hear your name a smile comes to my lips...
When I call your name you turn around and look at me with a brilliant radiant smile...
I Cherish your name forever It Shall be in my heart...

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Is opposite...

Argh...A lot of students going back for their semester break today.People getting lesser and lesser.What a weird programme i am taking,when i am having semester break,others were having their exam and when others having their semester break,my course is going to start.Aikzz...Abnormal course.Revision is not that easy as well.Nothing about academic stuff can go into my mind now.Suddenly i felt like a retarded person.Erm...Seems like nothing else for today...Keep crapping the useless thing...
A lot of questions remain unsolvable.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

I had three friends.
Eric, Cathlyn, Carol.
Eric was chased by all the girls in our high school.
Cathlyn was one of those popular girls. Cheerleader, sexy, and stylish.
Carol was just one of those plain and average girls .
Cathlyn and Carol were both totally crazy and wacko over Eric.
Cathlyn didn't have to do anything to attract Eric.
For she was already attractive enough.
Carol on the other hand, showered Eric which love and care.
Carol wasn't ugly at all.
In fact, she looked sweet and pleasant.
But she wasn't a cheerleader, she didn't were spaghetti-straps or tubes.
So like everyone expected, Eric chose Cathlyn.
For Carol was just one ordinary and plain girl.
While Cathlyn was labele d as the cool and attractive type.

Eric always insulted Carol.

Telling her what a 'Plain Jane' she was.
And how dumb she looked.
Which obviously made Carol feel so hurt and useless.
That's life. Carol never gave up though.
She wanted to prove something to Eric.
She wanted to prove that looks aren't everything.
She studied hard, really hard.
She became the top girl, and all the guys who once ignored her,
chased her.

But she never forgot Eric.
Everyday, she put a red rose in Eric's locker.
Always with the same words.
'I care for you, and I always will'
Because she knew that Eric was facing a hard time.
Eric began to realise.
How dumb he had been.
His beloved girlfriend, Cathlyn.
Was flirting with other guys.
He regretted for choosing the wrong girl.

Cathlyn broke up with Eric later.
For she had found a wealthier guy.
Eric felt so cheated, stupid and dumb.
He went to look for Carol.
He knelt on his knees, and said.
"Carol, please forgive me. Do you want to be my girlfriend?"
Carol rejected him, much to everyone's surprise.
She only uttered these words.
"You've suffered a great loss, so I don't want you to face another one"

Eric felt disappointed.
He didn't understand a word that she said to him.
But they became good friends.
Did everything together.
Eric began to change into someone better.
Because Carol showered him with the love he never experienced before.
His ex-girlfriends had never treated him that way.
They just accepted him for his looks.
But Carol accepted him for himself.
She changed him.
Carol continued putting a red rose into his locker everyday.
With the same words. She never forgot.

One day, Carol didn't turn up in school.
She didn't come for a week.
At first, Eric thought that she was on a vacation with her family.
Because she told him that she would be going Hawaii with them.
But one day. He received a call from the General Hospital.
Saying that Carol was about to die.
She had been suffering from cancer.
But Carol forbade them from telling him.
Because she didn't want Eric to worry about her.
But now that she was about to die.
She wanted to see Eric for the last time.
Eric rushed to the hospital.
When he saw how weak Carol was.
Tears began rushing down his cheeks.
He whispered."Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why did you hide this from me?"
She looked at him . And smiled weakly at him.

"When I said that I didn't want you to suffer from facing another loss, I meant this. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to worry. I wanted to spend my last days with you cheerfully." Eric looked at her.
"You can't leave me!" he said.
"What will I be without you?"
"You'll be who you are now. I will always be there by your side. Never forget that. Cherish those times. Live life happily. And one more thing."

"Yes?" "I love you" And she died. Eric screamed.
He still couldn't accept Carol's death.
He had only spent a month with Carol.

A month. But Carol changed his life in a way.
A way that no one could ever explain. He regretted.
But he knew that Carol would always be keeping an eye on him from Heaven.
Sometimes We just don't appreciate those people who really care for us.
Until they leave us. Until we lose them. Then we regret.
Outer beauty doesn't matter; it's the inner one that counts.
It's better to tell someone how much you love them.
Rather than to not tell them and lose them without telling them.
You'll regret Love is. When we fight till the very last minute.
Just to show and tell someone how much we love them.


If i could capture the memories of us
I would never forget them
I would put them away in my heart forever
I would keep you alive in my mind

And as days went by I would remember you
I would remember the times we were together
The times that I held you forever
And the time when we were in love

For hours I would hold you and think of nothing else
But of you and me together, hand in hand
As we traveled into each others hearts
And through our mouths confessed our love

A love that would be with us forever
A love that gave hope to a life worth living
A love that guided us through hard times
A love that consumed our whole beings

And as we drift apart from sweet misery
These memories will never leave me
And in my heart is where you will always be
But for now we will have to be just a memory